3 Mental Health Poems From My First Book, In Search of Happiness

Jordan Brown

I'm excited to announce that I will be self-publishing my first book in a few weeks! In today's newsletter, I'm sharing three poems from the book.

In Search of Happiness is my first book, and it's a poetry and short-essay journey through mental health issues toward a path of finding eventual healing and meaning.

I believe that anyone who has ever struggled with their mental health will find something from this book that resonates with them.

I hope you enjoy this sneak preview.

Mental Health Poems From My First Book

Chinks in My Armor


love is not what I wanted

but what I needed

it’s not a rainbow

but a rain bow

angling waterfalls

to cover me

with what I can’t escape


I thought I could name it

now I know

to name

is to limit it

is to dismiss it

is to render it

powerless

love is least expected

when it is most needed


try to force it

and it shrinks

try to grab it

and it recoils

try to live it

and it pales

but give up trying

and love

seeps into the cracks

growing flowers

through the chinks in my armor


Embracing a Single Thought


I remember when I first noticed

The constant thoughts

And the noticing

It was the hardest part


But new awareness

Brought new hope

That somewhere in the thoughts

There was freedom

And a pause

A mere staccato of space to be seized


The mind is tamed when it is noticed

Insight is its own reward

A million-step journey toward the center

Starts by embracing

A single thought


The Soil of An Island


when all is the same

who will be the piercing light?

the one who stands

alone

who bends and cuts

when others march?

 

others feel

the weight

of the world

with bodies, pressed

the burden

is shared, but also

indistinguishable


I choose to be free

with my thoughts

with my dreams

with the way

I see the world

 

I watch them all

float by

on a sea

of sameness

they live

for the waves

the rolling weekends

I am an island

long gone from Pangaea

who still feels

the homeland in his soil